through hell, alone

There ia deepness and there is me

Hopeless kingdom for you to see

Fire is for me to breathe 

Water to drawn my tears at sea

There is ice cold queen with a tale

Mermaid that cried whole night with me

She tried to understand me, but failed

You can't predict what you can't prevail 

And so the story ended and I've burned

For all the faces that gave me wrong turn 

For all the hearts I've had to bury

To keep mr alive, breathing and steady

For all the pain I've sacrificed myself 

What I've gained was only sorrow itself 

With no love lost or found inside of you 

That gave me the strength to find myself and me

The fact that I dreamed and lived alone 

The longest tournament on my own 

You only came to kiss me when i was in hell

I've got a secret but i won't tell 

Love doesn't offer me a survival rate

Got no statistics to prove to me its great

It is vicious to be the victim and to the bait

When heart is involved it gets too late 

Do you love me for me or for you,

Foe hoe i make you feel but not who i am?

This is my thesis, see, love is selfish 

To love is reckless, but to live.. that's a faith

There is life without you 

There was a life without you 

There will be another life

And in my mind I know I'm right 

For what is wrong, for what you said

For I have thoughts in my head

For how you've treated me so long 

I need to walk through hell alone 

Necessary evil

You're my necessary evil
You're my poison
And I go that extra mile
To be overdosed with
Light in your eyes
And dark in your heart
I need you like air
When you don't even care
That's when I want you
The most
I want the terror
The worst and baddest
The way that left
Turn me me on even more
I am your angel and devil
The love and the whore
I provide many colours
That you adore
Still push me away
But I want to go further
The deeper then ocean
Just to connect spots
In your mind maze
Where I found myself
Looking for something
So powerful only God understands
Open the gate
Cause I lost the key
The moment you left
And set yourself free
I was so devistated
By little time I had
To show what youve tougt
Was buried in sand
I tried but you refused
Touch of my hand
I still.picture in my.mind
The way that you stand
And shine as stars
But still so dark
I spoke to ghosts
And found out spark
That needed the most
I could've been there
Where you draw the line
Instead I was scared
To cross and survive
Even if I live
Doesn't mean I survived
The way that you look me
When you left that night
You're my necessary evil
And greatest gift
It could get tough
To love you again
But Loving you was like
Begging of the end
I started and still
Have zero regrets
Cause moments in time
Won't freeze if you let
Them go.and beacome.si free
It's scaring to know
I'm distant memory
I get in some Forrest
I got of the cliff
My passion remains
My love is real
My body unfolded
My desire if unfiltered
Waiting for you
To make final stop
On your way to..
A place where we used to meet
Where we had peace and Harmony
And love
That's only a word?,
Maybe to some
Who didn't felt it so close
To the meaning of it
And sometimes I cry
Cause I learned that life
Will not ask me why
And still gonna get me
What I deserved
Even if I didn't want to get hurt
My intentions are honest
I wanna get poisoned
Cause I need it like air
Even tho you don't care
I'm not asking for much
I'm.not praying for stars
I'm not fucking with truth
When I say who we are
I got suspended from place
Where I wanted to chase
Colours and forms
Words and actions
Rainbows and rains
Love and pain
That's how I painted
Picture in my mind
Where I'm broken
Still haven't cried enough
Still waiting for myself to fall
In final destination
And say I don't care at all
But it's hard for heart
to.reach.blank space
When it was taught
For a happy place
And you know that too
But you still had the bullets
And you shoot tight into
Didn't miss my soul
I don't regret even that
Cause I realized what I met
Someone special worth my time
Who know how to fuck
With body and mind

Love Again / In the woods

Love Again / In the woods

Back too roots
In future time
Running in woods
Still im fine
Black soul
Broken heart
Grow old
Get back to start
Cut it all
And let it grow
Let it fall
And let it go
Be strong
With this i pray
It goes on
It hurts this way
Breathe in
Love who u r
Dont sink in
In sins or stars
Follow the heart
Trust in mind
When you run
My body wont hide
Trust to mirror
Love what you see
In picture of memory
You will be you
I will be
Together well fall
In the eternety
Back in woods
Where we met
Tears of joy
Cause im afriad
To put these hands
And reveal myself
Too dark my friend
But i see the light
Strenght to luv again
Trust in me
Burn the bridge
Trust in you
For my path
We dont need
To make this end
In the woods
I loved you then
And this time
I beacome a men
Cause i crashed
Not afriad
To be hurt again
To fall in pain
So i wrote this letter
To you dear friend
Thank you
For freedom
Hapiness wont end
Cause i found
New way to mend
Pieces of ground where i stand
Earth wont break
Heart wont die
I may cry but i am shy
To let you know
How grateful i am
For the light
That has been
Guide and sign
In this land
And its you
Who i love again
So i forget
The dark past
And all thats been
The end of my ends

Bulevar Slomljenih

Plezir je iluzija
Promena je misija
Sve je moja vizija
Ovaj bol je opsesija

Moj udarac je tih
Moj pad je iznad svih
Moje note nemaju stih
Dok hodam bulevarom slomljenih

Đavo ne gubi osmeh
Zbog anđeoskih suza koje lije on
Tvoja bitka je neuspeh
Jer sve što volis je tron

Poraz se stvara kada se pobeda zaledi
Svuda važi isti zakon
Jaka želja rusi prepreke koje sila naredi
Ali ranjeni idalje traže svoj zaklon

Moj karakter postaje moja moc
Kada tvoje misli postanu zločin nečistih
Gubitnička svemoć te tera u zov za upomoć
Zato ponosno hodamo bulevarom slomljenih

Naš raskorak u nepoznato prostranstvo
Biće slika parade posramljenih
Kako slobodno dišeš u napušteno carstvo?
Dok nedužni, svejedno kažnjeni umiru javno
U tamnom uglu bulevara slomljenih

Kako uzimaš poslednju suzu iz oka?
Slepcu, strancu, otužnom i nesrećnom
Zlo ima previše lica, reka je previše duboka
Sve sto vidiš u ogledalu je stravični fantom

Ima vise emocija nego reci
Ali nema milosti u srcima ljudskim
Ima vise patnje nego sto covek jeci
Milion njih placu bulevarom slomljenih

Kada se svi strahovi oduzmu i saberu

Poželim da načinim zrno pravde  kroz ovaj stih 

i da moje grehove kiše sa lica isperu

tokom ponosnog hoda bulevarom slomljenih 

Municija ostaje bez intuicija 

Moje  srce je pogrešna investicija 

Doćiće dan kad će početi revolucija 

Ovaj um je mračna institucija 

Svi su šetali neke pogrešne staze

Tražili nekog da krvave uz njih

Svi imaju nekoga koga gaze

i taj neko živi u bulevaru slomljenih

Ko su moje reci da definišu?
Ko su moje suze da ovako dišu?
Ko je moja senka, moje drugo ja?
Ko je mračni covek koji proganja iz sna?
Ko je ovaj pištolj koji usmerava i preti?
Ko je crni duh da krila mi lomi?
Kada je moje vreme da konacno poletim?
I da smestim srce na mestima svetim

Postoje znakovi koji žele da me sprece
Znam koliko ponos peče dok otkriva sve njih
Sve vam je ljudi od duše veće
Zato korak napred u bulevaru slomljenih

Andjeo dole

Savrsen kraj, poslednji sjaj

Hodam sa andjelima, ali ne ocekujem raj

Oroel dole, i udari me bol

Zivim da pobedim to zlo

Sloboda zivot kosta, toliko i znaci

Zeleo bih da slomim katanac, ali sprecavaju me znaci

Ja sam ranjena ptica, oko mene okovani lanci

I svakog jutra pocinje isto, kada osvanu zraci

Nekada u tragedijama vidimo smisao zivota

Privilegija je biti ono sto jesi bez osuda iz tudjih oka

Radije bih umro na nogama, nego ziveo na kolenima

Slomljen andjeo, andjeo dole, nada je sve sto imam

Savrsen kraj, poslednji sjaj

Hodam sa djavolima, ali ne ocekujem oprostaj

Zivim na ivici, zato ovaj pakao isaraj

Imas pravo na prekrsaj, zato ne odustaj

Andjeo je ranjen, bez ijednog izvini

Svi su igrali, i smejali se u njegovoj blizini

Andjeo je najglasnije zavristao u tisini

Nekad je samo rec potrebna da ponistis cini

Savrsen kraj, obecani raj

Iluzija je preuzela kontrolu

Andjeo dole, andjeo place

Nekad su se smejali, a sada pevaju o njegovom bolu

Ja sam vernik, ali ponekad tragedije mi pomute sud
Radije bih spasio nevinog, nego ranio krivog
Sve ucinih, ali andjeo dole, zakopan isto kao suze i trud
Djavo uvek dodje po svoje, i nikad ne zatekne nikog zivog

Time

i'm locked door with no key, bird waiting ti be set free,
someone changed the lock so happiness is long way road for me,
i was in hands of a darker fate, but somehow i always find a way
to be sweeter then heaven, and hotter then hell, in this blackest day
this mind is louder then sirens, my heart is louder then bells
going through emotional violence, the story nobody will ever tell

and everybody knows, the way the story goes
i'm buried in the dust, with nobody to trust
except myself, i don't care if they put me in hell
i won't tell them the secret of love, no i won't tell
and if they stab me, i'd like to bleed your last words
and if they had me, go tell 'em it didn't hurt
cause you're my endless pain, time goes slow for those who wait
but i've waited milion years, just to finish my fate
and i will wait until i kingdome comes, and takes me to the place..

Trazim

Konacno je dosla ledena zima
osoba koja moje emocije ima
zadrzava ih ispod temperature
sadrze ih sve moje literature
jer se trazim..

Moja obojena java stvara
ples sa djavolom koji me obara
osmeh nestaje kao i moje tlo
kroz pakao hodam i ne smeta mi bol
jer te trazim..


Nesto je zaustavilo kisu
vreme je da se porazi prepisu
na mestu izmedju pasiva i agresija
kada telo gubi zelju da zasija
ja i dalje zelim
da nas trazim..


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strah samnom vlada ali um je bezbojan
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i ulazem poslednji necenjen stih
da nas nadjem..