Funeral Arraignments/Don't You Know

I didn't say how much I've missed you

It went dark, my day wasn't blissful 

I didn't write for several weeks then 

But I've never felt more alone in my life

Do you know?

It was near Christmas, rainbow lights 

My tears on top of the tree was in perfect sight 

I wanted to celebrate that your new engagement 

But I was planning my funeral arraignments

Don't you know?

I didn't say I trust you more then anyone,you know?

Even if you're childish and free of fucks to give

I didn't write for years about you, now in these night hours 

I want to be there to catch the wedding flowers

And read my poem at the ceremony 

I've lived my worst day counting to end

While you flourish and bloomed like a love bird 

I didn't have the heart to press the send

It wasn't my attention to cloud your joy with my hurt

So turned my back and saved as draft 

It was a cold december and half of January 

And in small texts i've tried to keep my grief hidden

Then you walked into the forever, I know, scary 

If I say honestly sorry, will I still be forgiven,

For my selfishness?

I didn't say how your laughter makes my day

Seemingly holds me together and sane

When I lived in pain, you showed me other side 

From highschool until now I'll always need you around 

Don't you know?

It's only a decade and a half since we've met

I should've been a better friend, a better person 

I'm sorry my heart was trembling and you were thinking about your engagement 

While I was crying my eyes out, planning funeral arraignments.

You should know 

Who says only silence scream so loud?

Cause I support you always even from a far in the crowd 

When the world is gray your laughter is a sunny day

And you should know, infinitive and more

You have a friend in my hand to hold 

Tu veux un mort

Je suis le plus triste.

Je suis le plus seul

Ja suis le plus malade

E mon couer est solitude

Ma vie est belle comme la souffrance

Mon bonheur danse avec la tristesse

tout dans le monde tout dans un cercle

mais mon plus grand obstacle est

Refren

Tu veux ma mort

Tu veux ma mort

tu veux tout de moi,

Tu veux mon désespoir,

Tu veux ma souffrance

Tu veux ma mort

Mais moi, je veux cette belle vie

Je suis un homme cassé

Ton cœur est ici, mais ton esprit brasse

Je reste seul à ma place

Le temps passe et je me lasse

Ma vie est belle comme la souffrance

Mon bonheur danse avec la tristesse

tout dans le monde tout dans un cercle

mais mon plus grand obstacle est

Refren

Tu veux ma mort

Tu veux ma mort

tu veux tout de moi,

Tu veux mon désespoir,

Tu veux ma souffrance

Tu veux ma mort

Mais moi, je veux cette belle vie

I, forecast

I forecast rain tomorrow 

From my eyes, it's the sorrow

I should wear umbrella

To protect myself, tomorrow

Someone will say something shallow 

And I'll be in my feelings again

I forecast wale wave of sadness 

Hurt will find me in the end

I forecast fire spreading quickly 

And burning witches at the stake 

I should always walk in number 

No matter how safe steps I take

To protect myself and others 

Cause innocent people may die

I forecast angel vanishing 

We will, but devil won't cry 

I forecast tornado clouds 

Children getting shot in head

I will never, never back down 

Cause I will die if they're dead

I forecast you won't be sure

The disease will spread in the blood 

The entire planet will be wasted 

We may not be saved, loved or found

I forecast a friend's betrayal 

It hurt like open wound from hell

But I shall not suffer if I'm not the cause 

For I can't predict what I can't prevail 

This has lead me to think I'm brave 

To say if I'm alone I'll never break 

And you can fly away from here

You weren't close when you were near

I'll write my own, and you'll write your end

And the world will turn again